When my mother told me that next weekend is Christmas, i was in disbelief. I couldn’t believe that Christmas was coming so soon. It’s as if Christmas literally crept up on me out of nowhere this year. I have no idea why, but i’m just not feeling it this year. I don’t have that excitement or anticipation that i’ve felt in the past years — i’m just lacking that festivity feeling.
It actually snowed during December this year, and yet that has failed to put me in a Christmas spirit. It just feels like any other time of the year. It’s strange because i’ve always felt it. I guess maybe i’m just getting too old for Christmas. We’re not bothering to take out the Christmas tree this year and there’s no decorations. We’re also not having that big gathering of relatives at my house this year (which has been happening for the last 4 or 5 years now) — but to be honest, i’m rather relieved about that since it means i wont have to go around cleaning the mess when everyone is gone, and it will definitely be saving my parents heaps on the electricity bill, not to mention spending less on stocking up on food, snacks and drinks. I haven’t been doing presents shopping (well, excluding shopping with my mum to buy chocolates for the relatives) and I haven’t been writing Christmas cards. I just haven’t done any of those Christmassy activities.
The one thing that i have done is eat Christmas dinner on the first day that i started work (which was last Thursday). I even came home with one of those mini live Christmas trees. Even so, i’m just not feeling it.
I’m hoping when Christmas eve or Christmas day hits, i’ll be feeling the festivity. But i guess for now, i’ll just continue attempting to get myself into the Christmas mood by making hot cocoa topped off with marshmallows, and taking care of my teeny Christmas tree.
♥ Veronica ~x