One Day At A Time

The other day whilst on facebook chat, someone told me that if they didn’t know any better, they’d think i was trying to shut out the world . This was because i told them that i hardly use MSN any more since no one really uses it nowadays, and i dislike using facebook chat. My lack in using instant messaging never had such an agenda behind it, though i have to admit, i am becoming increasingly good at doing so. It’s become easier to shut out the world, and if i’m totally honest, i don’t mind it one bit.

Last year, i hated being alone and i hated the fact that those so-called friends had turned on me. I utterly hated that lonely feeling. But now, i revel in it. I’ve come to realise i like my alone time, even if it means i literally am alone. Some people are too intense and bring with them a lot of drama. It’s something i could definitely do without. I just need to be stripped back to the basics. I know who my friends are and i know which friends i can rely on and which ones i can talk with about anything. I also know the ones who are literally too self-absorbed and only ask you how you’re doing because they need a break from talking about themselves. Some friends are genuinely curious because they care, others are curious only so as to provide fodder for the grapevine.

Obviously i know i can’t keep going on like this, after all, humans are innately social creatures. I suppose i’m just hanging out with the wrong kinds of people, and so i need to get out there and meet new people. This is easier said than done though. But for now, i’m perfectly comfortable with the way things are. I don’t know how long i’ll feel like this but it’s okay, i’ll just battle one day at a time for now.

[ heh, it’s been a while since i blogged completely in english ]

♥ Veronica ~x

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唔算開心的感覺

上兩星期覺得好想哭,有哭了少少… 仲以為會大哭但只哭了一兩分鐘,所以開始覺得那件事沒有我想得咁重要,原來我不是太在乎的。

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其實覺得自己有少少黑心… 但是人就係咁個樣吧。又唔算開心的感覺,都唔知點形容 哈哈。

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Yes my blog entry makes no sense… probably will make even less sense if you try to translate it, so don’t bother xD

♥ Veronica ~x

唔知自己想點

唔知都我應該有點的反應,好似想喊但係又覺得終於有個明白,所以應該是開心吧?其實我一直都希望是這樣的結果,但係現在的心情真係好難解釋。應該係同當時你口中的 “難解” 的感覺一樣吧? 可能我有點天真,不想再傻落去啦,再傻就由天真變成無知。

♥ Veronica ~x